A lot of familiar feelings have been creeping into my life recently that I have forgotten to have since about a year ago. One of which is this longing for something I desperately want and feel like I can do nothing about, which is kinda annoying. It's really not the feeling that's annoying, it's feeling that feeling that's annoying, like I'm taking steps backwards in my personal progression. (Clear as mud, right?) Shouldn't I be beyond getting frustrated over my reproductive capabilities?
I guess I naively thought that since these feelings took a sabbatical during my new-mommy-honeymoon-stage that they would stay away for good. I don't know why I was surprised when they came back, but I was. After my initial shock wore off I thought "well, what are you going to do about it?"
A couple Sundays ago I gave a comment in church that was a revelation from God that answered my own question. Be Grateful. Life can be so full if one is only grateful for what they have and then recognize that everything they are grateful for comes from God. I love this quote on gratitude:
We can lift ourselves and others as well when we refuse to remain in the realm of negative thought and cultivate within our hearts an attitude of gratitude. If ingratitude be numbered among the serious sins, then gratitude takes its place among the noblest of virtues. Someone has said that “gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all others.”Publicly I would like to say that I am so grateful for my life! For my husband, daughter, family, and friends. Whether we have 1 kid or 100 kids or anything in between I have such a full and happy life and so much gratitude for my Father in Heaven who has entrusted me with all these blessings.
I look forward to all the blessings and miracles (big and little) that will come into our life!