Here It Goes Again

We have them. They're sitting next to my laptop on the table. Our folder with our adoption paperwork is right here, and it has begun again.

I started them just as soon as I got home with them last week, and then I stopped. I don't know, I thought this go-round would be easier, less unfamiliar, but honestly it feels like I've gone back in time a few years. I'm just as unsure of my capability to parent as I used to be. Just as unsure of the process as I used to be. Just as unsure of the heartaches and joys ahead of us as I used to be.

Ya know what's changed? I know this is what I want. I think maybe the first time around I was always hoping just a little that I would get pregnant and we could be done with the whole adoption thing, just because at times it was so hard. But now, I'm kinda horrified to get pregnant. I WANT to adopt another beautiful baby like the one I already have adopted more than anything in the world.

If the next baby wanted to cuddle a little more than my first I wouldn't complain at all, but my desire is not for a carbon copy baby, it's for another beautiful adoption.

And so we walk forward in uncertainty and trepidation, but with a "perfect brightness of hope", because no matter how long it takes or how hard the pathway is, I have seen the other side, and it is oh so good.

So prepare yourselves for an onslaught of changes happening around the blog. A lot of requests to help our family grow will be coming your way, (our references have already been contacted...what great people we know)! A lot of adoption updates complete full of triumphs and trials!

Y'all ready for this? (dun nun nuh nun nun nun...) I hope we are!