Showing posts with label Oregon. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Oregon. Show all posts

Monday, January 28, 2013

Applying for Jobs is Complicated!

Nick has been applying to a number of jobs in a variety of fields across the country, and so far has a couple of offers. We're so thrilled! The problem is that now we have to make a lot of serious decisions, and decision-making is not my forte. 

Living in Oregon right next to our family was never really an option for us, simply because Nick has always wanted to teach at a major research university, and Oregon only has a couple of those. But now we have to figure out our preferences for salary, career path, and location. Like how far are we willing to live away from our family in Oregon and for how long? Are we willing to sacrifice salary for preferred career path? And the questions go on and on...

Additionally, we have some birth family in Colorado to consider and that we'd really like to be close to them as well. And of course, recently spending time in Oregon with our families is not making the decision easier. I mean, how are we supposed to keep our kids away from this kind of love in their lives?

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We'll keep everyone posted on job updates when we can, but until then, just enjoy your homes,  families, and not packing for the time being. That's what we'll be doing!

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Oregon is Weird

We've been vacationing in Oregon, one of our favorite places ever! We really love it here, but it sure is weird!

That was reaffirmed when I went to a huge bookstore, Powell's, in Portland, and had to park in a structure that only had 12 spaces per level. Yeah, it was small, narrow, and just ridiculous. Why? Because people in Portland hate cars.

So, I enjoyed a couple clips from YouTube last night celebrating weird Portland, so you should enjoy them as well.

More deets on our vacay in future posts. Peace, yo.
 



Friday, November 30, 2012

Covetousness: The True Christmas Spirit

I don't know about the rest of you, but I am getting caught up in the Christmas spirit this year!

I want...I need...I wish I had...

That's the Christmas spirit, right?

Our financial situation is fine, we're just not going to get that Mercedes and move into that mansion that we've been planning on. Bummer, I know.

Nope, this year Alexa is getting the gifts and our family is headed to Oregon to see Grandmas and Grandpas and Aunts and Uncles and Cousins and Friends! There's definitely challenges to our parents living 5 miles apart, but I'm glad we get to make one trip and see everyone during the holidays!

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So, my motto this year for Christmas has been this:
"Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication." -Leonardo Da Vinci

I'm not sure that my heart has caught up with my brain on this quite yet, but there's still time! My mom gave me a lot of wonderful qualities (thanks for those, no thanks for the nose), but my favorite maybe that she and I are both dreamers. I've talked about this before, but at Christmas time it's so easy to get caught up in dreams, and some even decide to elevate their dreams above their finances.

We don't do that. Both Nick and I have had to sacrifice some of our immediate wants this year for something that we really want: financial stability.

Our recipe for a simple Christmas this year is this: we're filling each others' stockings for $20 or less, Alexa is getting new gifts from grandparents, birth-grand-parents, aunts and uncles, and from other gracious admirers. But Santa is playing it cool this year and is giving her second-hand and homemade gifts...and of course some candy. That's it.

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I certainly admit to indulging the green-eyed monster of covetousness a few times too many this season, but I am the master of my fate, my happiness, and my finances!

It's going to be a wonderful Christmas season this year! So much to be grateful for and to look forward to and delicious delights to bake and share...more stuff would just clutter it up!

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We're getting our tree tomorrow (YAY!) and I'm planning on finishing Alexa's stocking this weekend and will also figure out a stocking to make for The Sneetch as well. Can't forget about our next little character that will be coming into our home when the time is right! Maybe by next Christmas...

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a silly and smiley weekend!

Monday, March 19, 2012

Music Monday

I Wish It Would Rain, The Temptations

"I know to you it might sound strange, but I wish that it would rain." That line really spoke to me when I heard it on Pandora last week. Spring should be full of rain, and in Colorado that just doesn't happen. I know the song is a little melancholy, but I do love it! I love Motown music, The Temptations, and rain. Perfect combination!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Mom & Dad Nelson's 30th Aniversary

On December 29th, 1981 Nick's parent's were married and 29 years, 364 days later their children and grandchildren threw them a little party. It was great little party on the only day that (almost) everyone was able to be there - we missed you DaNeill, Keira, Aysa, and Phoebe - but it was a great chance to get together and celebrate what Mom and Dad have built over the past three decades.

Rachel (with a lot of help from Kandice, Jessica, Cassidy, Camille, and Aly) put together a lovely video of photos from the Nelson family's first 30 years.  Enjoy!

For those of you paying attention, yes, the date on the video is wrong.  Interestingly, all of Nick's siblings somehow got Mom and Dad's anniversary off by one day.  Nick said it was the 28th several months ago and somehow nobody caught the mistake (including Nick) until the start of the party when Mom mentioned that their anniversary was the 29th.

Mom and Dad go to all the trouble to raise us and we can't even be bothered to get their wedding date right.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Happiness is...Riding a Carousel

Back in August (yeah, I know we're behind), we went to Salem's Riverfront Park and rode on the carousel. Aside from getting Nick's parent's car towed (don't ask) we all had a really great time.

I'm posting this partly to share the experience, and partly because I really love this picture. It's of my sister Cindy riding the carousel with her son Mason (right above/behind her) and daughter Kaitlyn (her face is not shown because, well, carousels move quickly). My sister is an inspiration of what it means to be a great mother, and she's really pretty, showcased in the picture!

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Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Hello Friends!

Wanna know something that a physicist and data analyst love? Numbers and graphs. Wanna know what does that and is related to blogging? Google Analytics. It's a lot of fun for us, especially the map feature where we can see where everyone who looks at our blog is looking from. So, here's a couple shout outs to our friends (people we actually know, people we've talked to online, and people we'd love to get to know) in the following places of the world:

United Arab Emirates
Thailand
India
Sri Lanka
United Kingdom
Germany
Australia
Pelotas, Brazil
Vancouver/Calgary/Edmonton, Canada
Every state in the U.S. (with special shout outs to Utah, Oregon, Colorado, Washington, Alaska, Idaho, and North Carolina--that last one was a surprise to us, too)

If I missed you on the list, leave a comment or send an email and say hello! We'd love to get to know you better!

Here is our niece, Kaitlyn, waving hello to you (she's a pretty friendly gal):
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Thursday, June 10, 2010

#7: Visit Colorado's Capital Building

I unintentionally lived from my list on Tuesday as this wasn't so much a visit as it was a job interview, but I still went inside and walked around. It was very regal, very different than Oregon's capital. And there's no dude on the top, which is always disappointing.

This is Oregon's State Capital, which is literally blocks from my high school. The dude on top is a pilgrim coming to Oregon. You can go up and stand right under him and see the entire city!  

Here's Colorado's capital. There is currently construction happening in the left side of the picture.

I was still completely thrilled to be at the capital building, especially since I've been studying politics, I appreciate what goes on there even more!

Anyway, the job is with the Lt. Governor's office, and would be an AWESOME opportunity for me. I'll let you know if there is good news to share!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

From Orphan to Legend

A good friend of mine from high school told me that she thinks of Nicholas and I EVERYday because of a billboard along I-5 in Oregon that has a picture of this man


that says: "From Orphan to Legend."

Thank you for your thoughts, prayers, love, well wishes, and friendship. This process would be infinitely harder without our friends and family to support us. We know we have and will continue to be blessed by the hand of God daily.

And we know, that when the time is right, our child will come into our lives and hearts and forever change us. We will happily wait patiently for that day.
"It is important to know, when you feel depressed, that many others do also and that their circumstances are generally much worse than yours. And it’s important to know that when one of us is down, it becomes the obligation of his friends to give him a lift. I hope that each of us will cultivate a sensitivity toward the feelings of others, and when encouragement is needed, make an effort to extend it. Be a friend, and you will have a friend. God be thanked for wonderful friends."
President Gordon B. Hinckley

Friday, June 4, 2010

Fill in the Blank Friday

So I stumbled across this blog and the author plays this game with her readers on Fridays. As I love games, of course I wanted to play! Oh, I want you to play, too! Let me know if you do by posting a comment.

1.  My dream vacation would be I think it would have to be Brazil. Nicholas spent two years there and it looks amazing, the people seem incredible, and what an experience it would be to hit up a soccer game, just to be part of the soccer insanity!

2.  The best trip I've ever taken was either my trip to London with my choir group when I was 11, or any number of the trips I've taken to Oregon since moving away from home. It is simply impossible to choose a favorite/best.

3.  The most important items to take on a road trip are newly burned CDs, Hot Tamales (the candy, obviously), your pillow, and great company!

4.  The next trip I'm looking forward to is a no brainer: TWIN LAKES! Every year Nick's paternal side of the family gets everyone together in Washington for a week in July to play with the boats, chat, and eat amazing food! And we're leaving in only 34 days! Which also happens to be one day after I turn in my final paper for my Master's Degree (perfect timing, I know)! I see some items on my live list getting checked off soon...

5.  If I had to pick one CD to listen to for a long road trip it would be  funny story: the last road trip we took (to Utah) we made some CDs and since Nick was hating on a lot of my music, I made a CD and called it "Don't be a hater!" On that CD I included the following songs (I really am an eclectic listener, so there is a lot of schizophrenic variety here. If you don't know a song, check it out, they're all awesome):
**Not all songs have a link because I either put them in a previous post or I KNOW you've heard them before**
Samson, Regina Spektor
Finiculi Finicula, The Three Tenors
Hate On Me, Jill Scott (I play this when Nick's being ornery)
Smile, Uncle Kracker
Modern Nature, Sondre Lechre
Beauty Mark, Rufus Wainwright
Lovely Rita, The Beatles
The Best Thing, Relient K
Come Go With Me, The Beach Boys
Run and Tell That, Elijah Kelly (from Hairspray)
Train Going South, Peter Breinholt
Single Ladies, Beyonce
She Talks to Angels, Black Crowes
No Doubt at All, Rockapella
Halo, Beyonce
Defying Gravity, Lea Michele (Glee, yeah I love it)
Best Days, Matt White
And I Am Telling You, Amber Riley (Glee, again, love)
Buddy Holly, Weezer
Girl on the Roof, David Mead
I Know Where I've Been, Queen Latifah (Hairspray, awesome soul)
Got to Get Home, Peter Breinholt
I Got the Sun in the Morning, Kim Criswell (Annie Get Your Gun, this isn't her version which is better, but you get the idea)
(I totally just realized I forgot about She & Him on my CD, In the Sun is GREAT!)
This list would absolutely include Jack Johnson and Michael Buble if I didn't already have entire CDs of their music already in the car at all times. Just FYI. And yes, I did fit all of these onto one CD, because I "you're not hardcore, unless you live hardcore," and fitting 24 songs onto one CD is so hardcore!

6.  The biggest disaster I've ever encountered while traveling  was  nothing immediately comes to mind, but one situation does stand out as particularly miserable, but wonderful memories: 5 people in 5 passenger Mazda Protege; we're all tired, sore, sunburned, and hot; middle of July; no AC; 19 hours. One word to describe: craziness...we were all hating every second of that drive, but misery loves company and we had a great time nonetheless!

7.  My favorite traveling memory is  one of the old school ones, which is pretty good: We were traveling to/in/around Cali to visit family with my grandma sitting in the front seat. The song "I'll Make a Man Out of You" from Mulan came on and when that happens my 3 sisters and I would pump up the tunes and just belt it out! After the song, my grandma said something like "you girls have the prettiest voices" and we're all thinking "uhhh, were you listening to the same border-line screaming horendousness that we were?" 
My grandma also described some spinning hubcaps as "darling"...probably not what the homies were going for. RIP Grandma, we miss you and your unintentional humor!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Friday Fifteen #1: Things I Miss About Oregon

It quite literally just occurred to me that Thursday completely blew right past me. From work to school to other amazing things, I think I thought about the blog and how yesterday was Thursday maybe ONCE!

Seeing as how I am sure everyone of you was crying out in overwhelming grief and sadness because I missed my weekly Thursday Thirteen, I decided to institute Friday Fifteens, the main purpose of which is to provide restitution for the missed Thursday ritual.

Today I needed something I would have no trouble coming up with 15 things for, so without further adieu, 15 things I miss about living in Oregon:

1. All-Year Green
Yeah, that's real. It's called Opal Creek. Favorite.

2. Trees

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3. Rain

4. Overcast Days

5. The Beach
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Some of us may like the beach more than others. Yes, my niece, she's eating handfuls of sand!

6. Mo’s
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7. Riverfront Park

8. Dazy Maze
(I couldn't find a picture but it's a consignment shop in Keizer and I miss it!)

9. Fred Meyer

10. 87 degree highs in the summer
This is North Fork. On really hot days we'd drive out and just play at Three Pools. Good times.

11. Wet Snow (best for snowball fights and snowmen)


12. Burgerville

13. Abundant Blackberries

14. Puddles

15. Living Close to Family!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Here's to Happier Mother's Days

I am writing this now because I will be in Utah on Sunday and will be too caught up with family and friends to share these feelings. Thank goodness!

Sunday marks the 5th Mother's Day we've been married, the 4th one that we've wanted to celebrate with children, and the 1st one that we have been hoping to adopt. Last year this holiday hurt like it hadn't before, and it's not even Sunday yet and I am starting to get emotional. My guess: I'm just really wanting to have kids to mother.

Nicholas and I keep a "blessing book." We write in it practically every night, and on May 10th of last year, Mother's Day, this is what I wrote (I would like to remind you that we had very much just moved into the ward):
At church today Nicholas helped in the primary and left me by myself in Sunday School. I was a little scared and uncomfortable throughout the class, but not a big deal. Just before Relief Society a nice lady started asking me who I was and where I was from. She also asked if I was a little homesick, and for some reason or another at that I just got very emotional and started crying. It was a little overcast today, so between that reminding me of Oregon, feeling a bit alone in the ward, and it being Mother's Day with no children yet--I guess I just didn't see it coming. I was still crying when Relief Society started, and I felt so embarrassed, I could not pull myself together. One of the counselors in the presidency came and sat by me after opening exercises and gave me some tissues and a side hug. After that I was still a little teary eyed, but composed enough to make a comment, which made me feel more apart of the ward. I am so grateful for her concern for me, a practical stranger, because she made that last hour in church bearable. Nicholas made me french toast this morning for Mother's Day; what a sweetheart he is!
A couple notes: I was so homesick for my family, Oregon, anyone who had known me longer than 2 hours, my children, and my Heavenly Father. I wanted to go home, to anywhere/anyone that I could attribute that title, so incredibly much! That's how infertility feels, I think. It feels like this aching homesickness. The best cure for that aching is service. My comment in Relief Society and how I felt afterwords taught me that.

Today I started thinking about how much I wish our children could have Nicholas', and his father's, genuine smile. I thought how much I wish they could have my crazy cowlicked hair. I thought how much I miss them.  

It's like loving someone so much and feeling like you would search for them anywhere if you only knew where to look. I imagine it's a similar feeling when a parent loses a child. My little sister wandered off in a campsite once and I remember how scared my mom was, how worried she felt. I couldn't understand why. Somehow, now I do.

Trust me, I would much rather post something that makes you laugh, but I feel like I should share that some days/hours are harder than others. And that I do miss my children, that I know they belong here with me, I just don't know when or how they're coming.

It reminds me of the song Lead Kindly Light, one of my favorites. Here are a couple lines that apply:

"The night is dark and I am far from home
Lead thou me on
Keep Thou my feet; I do not ask to see
The distant scene, one step enough for me...
I loved to choose and see my path, but now
Lead Thou me on...
So long thy power hath blest me sure it still
Will lead me on...
The night is gone
And with the morn, those angel faces smile.
Which I have loved, long since and lost a while."

I also thought about this today: as much as I love Nick's smile and my crazy hair, I know that our child's smile and hair (or lack thereof, depending on the baby) is going to make my heart feel like it's pounding right out of my chest every time I see them. Picturing something you've never seen before is tricky, but that feeling in my heart when I think about rough housing with our little boys and having "tea" parties with our little girls is absolutely unmistakable. I know it will happen, I just need to be patient. I'd wait forever for our beautiful little angels.

So, here's to happier Mother's Days, when Nicholas isn't the only one making me French Toast for breakfast!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Happiness is...a little bit of Home in My Home

Both Nicholas and I grew up in Oregon. We love it and miss the rain, quite seriously! Overcast days in Colorado are pretty much heaven to both of us. So moist. So refreshing. So imagine my excitement when I discover the new throw pillows I purchased were

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Just in case you can't read the blurry tag (my fault): "Proudly produced in Oregon."

Didn't notice that at first, but clearly our relationship was meant to be. How many people can say that about their throw pillows?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The Parable of the Rain

Many people/things have inspired me today to post, but specifically I would like to dedicate this to my friends Jenni and Tiffany. Your thoughts, for whatever reason, have inspired this thought.

Once there was a little tree, and it was happy. Until one day it started to rain, and it became cold and wet and began to wonder "Why do I have to be cold and wet when there are so many other trees that are warm and dry? Why are there so many other trees that can sit and bathe in the sun all day long and never have to fret with the rain? And mostly, why is where I have been planted out of my control?"


After the tree sat there for a while cold and wet, and perhaps a little glum, it realized that there was something in the distance. There was a HUGE tree, much larger and wiser than the little tree who began sharing with him some important lessons he has learned in his life.


"Little Tree, because of this rain, you will grow big and strong and beautifully luscious. You will be more able to help others through the beauty you can bring into their lives. Little tree, 'Come what may and love it.' There is such wonder and joy in opportunities that stretch our capabilities and that test our understanding. Whenever there is rain there is also inevitably mud; it shows that God's hand has been at work. Learn to love the rain, Little Tree."

And so, the Little Tree began to look beyond himself, and even though he had to look closely, he found beautiful things that the rain had created! The Big Tree continued to share some insights from other wise trees he had listened to in the past:


"'Who is it that whispers so subtly in our ear that a gift given to another somehow diminishes the blessings we have received? Who makes us feel that if God is smiling on another, then He surely must somehow be frowning on us? You and I both know who does this—it is the father of all lies. It is Lucifer.' Don't let him trick you, Little Tree!"


"'Each of us will have our own Fridays, those days when the universe itself seems shattered and the shards of our world lie littered about us in pieces. We all will experience those broken times when it seems we can never be put together again. We will all have our Fridays. But I testify to you in the name of the One who conquered death—Sunday will come. In the darkness of our sorrow, Sunday will come. No matter our desperation, no matter our grief, Sunday will come. In this life or the next, Sunday will come.' And until the rain stops, as it always does, Little Tree..."


"...continue to look for the beauty in the world around you! 'Claim [your] exceedingly great and precious promises and never let go!' Learn to laugh, seek for the eternal, and remember that 'every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude.' God has not forgotten you, Little Tree. He has not misplaced the sunshine he has set aside for you, nor has He given it to another tree. He is in control of where you were planted, but you are in control of how strong you grow. Grow strong, Little Tree."


"Embrace hope, Little Tree. For 'hope...is like the beam of sunlight rising up and above the horizon of our present circumstances. It pierces the darkness with a brilliant dawn. It encourages and inspires us to place our trust in the loving care of an eternal Heavenly Father, who has prepared a way for those who seek for eternal truth in a world of relativism, confusion, and of fear.' Even though your trials may not disappear immediately, we can live a quality life now, for that is 'God's greatest wish for us. Life is to be lived well in whatever circumstances we find ourselves.' Live well, Little Tree."


The Little Tree thought about what the Big Tree had said. And then, because the Little Tree was planted in Colorado, it began to snow.


But instead of getting discouraged, the Little Tree looked around and saw another tree going through the same wet and cold as him, and decided to try to make a new friend, because he "realized as never before that good friends and faithful family members make challenges less difficult."


So, the Little Tree learned many important lessons that rainy/snowy day. Lessons that will bless his life for years to come. And, lessons that he'll be able to share with others to lift their spirits on their rainy days.

The author of this parable makes no claim that she has no bias towards rain because she grew up in Oregon. The following talks were not harmed in the making of this parable (in order of appearance): Come What May, And Love It, The Other Prodigal, Sunday Will Come, Claim the Exceeding Great and Precious Promises, The Infinite Power of Hope, Be a Quality Person, and Adversity and You. (Whew!)

I love the literal rain, and I'm working on the figurative little drops.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Happiness is...falling head over heels into LOVE.


My friend Rebecca posted this poem and I thought it was perfectly descriptive of how I feel about Nicholas. Perhaps even how we feel about each other.
LOVE
By Roy Croft
(emphasis added by Rachel)

I love you,
Not for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.

I love you,
Not only for what
You made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me
.

I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out
;
I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things

That you can't help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light

All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.

I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern

But a temple;
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song
.

I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good,
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.

You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend
means,
After all.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Happiness is...freshly fallen snow

I took these a couple months ago when it was snowing like mad. I got up before the hustle and bustle of life ruined the serenity of the snow. It's snowing again today, so I thought it this post was especially appropriate.


I have to admit that being raised in Oregon I have a slight aversion to snow. Generally, I would prefer it was raining. However, I also must admit, that snowfall can be very peaceful and beautiful.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

A Rainy Christmas

Hailing from Oregon means I never dream of a white Christmas, I dream of a rainy Christmas. For two weeks at the end of December and beginning of January Nicholas and I went home to Oregon to visit both our families. We had a wonderful time, and miss being so close to family. Here are some pictures to show some of what we did.

This is my sweet niece Anna, my sister Jen's daughter. She is 17 months and is so much fun! This is what happens when you pull out a camera...
This is my niece Kaitlyn, my sister Cindy's daughter. I absolutely adore her! We're playing telephone, one of her favorite games. These two girls are 3 months apart and we have such a great time together.

Bouncing down the stairs is a lot of fun!

Kaitlyn and I were Santa's little helpers on Christmas Eve.

This was Kaitlyn's reaction to my mother's delicious fruit dip. Apparently she wasn't a big fan.

This is my sweet daddy enjoying Christmas Eve with the family!

A tradition for my family is we all get together and exchange family gifts on Christmas Eve and there is typically dinner involved.

This is my niece Abby and her reaction to my gift for her: Hannah Montana the movie soundtrack!! OH YEAH!

Abby and my sister Cindy (front) made the rest of my sisters and my mom scarves. We all loved the colors and fuzziness!

Cindy and youngest daughter Kaitlyn having fun playing together. So cute!

Abby gave her aunties a makeover, a tradition whenever I get to come and visit. Aunt Jen got an initial branded on her forehead and we both got our awesome lines detailed like explosions coming out of our eyes. Beautiful!!

Oh, but we got her back! She is such a sweet girl! We have a lot of fun together.

Another family tradition (we have a lot) is that we eat at a local restaurant near my parents' home every New Year's Eve. We have been doing this for as long as I can remember...the best Chinese food ever! Beef and Broccoli, Parchment Chicken, Won Ton Soup, Chicken Fried Rice are some of my favorites. Okay, maybe I generally just like the food!

My sister Jen and I decided to paint my parents' dining room for a Christmas gift. This is the mostly completed project.

After a traditional family dinner of spaghetti and meatballs we had to give Anna and Kaitlyn a bath. We must have took a few dozen pictures of them. Look at those big, beautiful, brown eyes.

Kaitlyn and her little cheesy smile is having a great time. She loved blowing bubbles in the water and inevitably would choke a little. So cute!

Nick got a wittle sweepy towards the end of the trip. In my family, we can't just let sleeping dogs lie...what fun is that?!

I realize that there aren't any pictures of Nick's family, and all I can say is sorry. However, our Thanksgiving trip provided a lot of Nick's family, so you can look at those if you want!